From the Draft...very old post unfair!!

The worst thing about guys and career options is that there are always too many good ones to choose from, and ones which appeal to you the most are the least attractive to your parents!!

Life is unfair to me, or I guess I am unfair to life. Most of the times I don’t know what I want, and at those times life gives me pleasant surprises and everything makes me happy. And when I know what I want, I might get things but they don’t make me/everyone happy, and I end up letting go of those very things I once wanted the most!

i read these lines somewhere and was inspired by it.......

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

was she in LOVE??

finally m writing what i was thinking from so long

She was not talking one of her very good friend. She was hurted. This pain was familiar to her. It was same as she had when she did not talked to her Best Friend.

That time she was heart broken, shattered, missing him all the time and now she was missing her.

The difference is when she did not talked to her Best Friend who was a guy, her friend said that she is in Love with him that is why she is heart broken. But she was feeling the same for her another very good friend.

She was confused. She was trying to find out the answer" Was it Love?"

Finally she concluded that Yes it was LOVE. It was Love of Best Friends. A Girl and a Boy can be best friends too. There is not always a need of having committed relationship. And friends do love each other very much. They can do anything for their friends. They do miss them badly in their absence and feel hurt after having fight.

Again a question popped into her mind " Then What actually Love is ? And When and How will I realize that 'Yes, I am really In LOVE and He is the person of my choice ?' "

Relationship...

in ur lifetime, ur a part of many relationships.. whether it's with ur mom, dad, siblings, cousins, friends or that significant other. for every relationship to be successful, both sides have to compromise a little... but what happens when only 1 side is expected to compromise and not the other?

i guess this is how people become very distant from each other .. or their relationships just end slowly. expecting a lot from one side and nothing from the other just seems so .. unfair. but then again, people do say.. life is unfair! but why do relationships have to be unfair? when u love some1, why can't u give them something back while ur expectations are so great. why can't the RULES for the relationships be fair for both sides? if one has to compromise, the other should do it too.. ritee? ok so mayb this won't work in every relationship.. cuz every relationship is different. ur relationships with ur parents would b different from ur relationship with ur siblings.. both require love but they both have a different set of rules.

what im talkin about is the relationship with that significant other... the special person.. the loved one.. that totally-handsome-tall-dark-dude from the romantic comedies that girls dream of.. that knight in the shinning armor... the one who would treat u like ur all they see and no1 else. these kinds of relationships require some compromise, some understanding and most of all, TRUST!

rules for both side should b the same.. and one shouldn't expect too much from the other. my understanding of these kinds of relationships isn't so vast but i do know that without some expectations, same rules, compromise, understanding and trust .. these relationships tend to not last very long.

oh another thing, some people in relationships tend to be VERY controlling.. which obviously isn't a good thing, cuz its like.. we have a life of our own, yes ur a part of it, yes we love u, but we do have a brain and we do know how to use it. we have our own choices to make which we can make all by ourselves.. u can give us ur opinion on things but u can't control every single day of our life!

ok so lets not 4get the good side. he does love u, he is there when u need him, he is an important part of ur life and u do love him a lot. he gives u his time, he cares for u a lot. lends his shoulder when u need it, yes he does have ego problems but he does eventually get over it. he wipes ur tears, hugs u when u need it, tells u ur beautiful when ur a mess and he does appreciate that ur a part of his life.

so in my understanding, every relationship is unique in its own way.. yes, they all have tiny problems but then u do get tremendous amount of love in return [hopefully]... well, through my observation, in the end i do come to a conclusion which goes something like this ..

can't live with them, can't live without them!

Dreams.......

I look around me…

There’s a man who never had a dream, circumstances made him look like a beggar and not a chooser, he took up what came his way, made it his dream to succeed in it and he did. He says he’s happy today!

Then there’s this girl, who wanted to be a doctor, parents, money, luck- pushed her into software, she smelled green ink, n stayed there!! I think she’s happy…she looks like that!!

There’s another one who wanted to teach French but got married and the dream was lost!! I can’t say if she’s happy, I never had d courage to ask!!

Another one left a high paying job to pursue his dream, he found success as well. I am sure he’s happy, I don’t need to ask!

There’s also, a man who has all d prestigious degrees in the country. But his marriage fell apart after 20 long years and two kids. Is there any meaning to his success?? I wonder what his dream really was!

And then there’s a girl who realized she never really wanted what she dreamt of all this while after having worked hard enough to make it true!

There are so many of them around me, most of them happy with what they have. Some think they couldn’t have gotten any better, the others just tell themselves they could have been worse and they should rather be thankful than crib!

Its amazing how so many of them never really had a dream!! And those who did, compromised on them for comforts! A handful of them fought only to realize later this isn’t what they really wanted. Some of them are still fighting, the rest are searching for new dreams.

I’m thinking, what are dreams for?? To fall back on when nothing else falls in place or to make sure they come true??

May be dreams are there to tell us that happiness is a choice we make, it doesn’t come as a result of certain dreams which come true, but with a decision, which we take to make sure we live well.

m back :))

finally ...after so many months m back to blogging :)..its been so long i havent written anything...now am realizing its always best to give words to your thoughts

RaNdOm

I care not so much what I am to others as what I am to myself. I will be rich by myself, and not by borrowing. ~Michel de Montaigne

Once someone, a stranger said so about me...

u r open...but still very sensitive kinda animal....
ur world is sooo small but plenty of space is vacant...available....
u no ur worth but till date not able to en cash it or one can say...didnt get wat u deserve...
very few ppl can understan u
u r too vulnerable...
u wanna do somethin tat normal persn cannt think of...but problm is u also dont no wat u wanna do..
tats y u r talking wit urself...observng urself...incase u vl get ne clue or hint abt u..
u r ONE BIG QUESTION MARK nt fo others also fo urself...
n u r tryin to solve dis puzzle..wit da help of urself(only)....but...
task is huge....n u r so small fo it...u need someone....
wit whom u can share everythin.....but again....
u r missing tat someone desperately....
u r too ahead tan material life..ur needs r much greater tan tis.....
but dont wory..
if ur intentions r strong...whtever dey r(u said u dnt no yet)...u vl reach der....
ur journey is on..n u r miles ahead tan others..
Trust me.

love matters ???

Sometimes when I see around,looking at my friends,cousins and other unknown youngsters of my age,I am often intrigued. each of them has an all together different woe to share.I find them lonely, even amidst a hoard of friends,family and teachers. Though,these innocent young minds are still standing at the thresholds of manhood/womanhood,yet all of them have already had their share of grown-up experiences.Even within the tender age group of 16-21,all of them have already "loved and lost" atleast once in their lives,to say the least!

The fragility of human relationships gives a serious jolt to my innocent dispositions every now and then.Its just so disgusting. Isn't it?

Well,I am certainly not against the whole circle of loving and being loved. Love is undeniably,the most beautiful relationship that anyone can ever get into.But what makes me surprised,is the misinterpretation concerning love,rampant among the young hearts.

Love is not just a "Boyfriend-girlfriend" relationship! (By the way,the entire notion behind the bf-gf concept among todays's youth is ample enough to send a shiver down Adam-Eve's hearts!)

Love doesn't gives the license to play with your lover's heart,emotions and life. Its certainly not just about sending perennial text messgaes to your so-called soulmate or, constantly buzzing him/her esp at the odd hours of the day.Its not about exchanging roses and love-letters,and keeping fake Karwachauths(yes,FAKE!!!) in lieu of getting expensive gifts in return from your so-called hubby-to-be. Its even more disgusting to see some foolish girls breaking the sanctity of this esteemed custom,without even knowing a speck about its essence.I believe,its no less than a sacrilage!

Love is not about roaming hand in hand along the lake-side,just to exhibit a public display of your love.Its not about going for shopping together,expecting your lover to reimburse your extravagent bills.Its certainly not about checking out the fancy restraunts together, and then skimming through their fancy menu cards to lay hands on the most pocket-friendly platter.Its not about going on long drives playing ear-blasting music(in open jeeps,fancy cars) disrupting the traffic by rash driving.

My question is,Do we really need love at this stage of life.?
Is it even required?
Is it right to go through the trauma of heartbreaks and breakups, at the very onset of teenage?
By doing so,aren't we demeaning the sanctity of love?

Well,my answer to this would be,Yes. We certainly are depriving love of its natural charm and poise! It is really easy getting hooked with someone,but its inexplicably tougher to carry forward the relationship with a balanced amount of grace and dignity.In today's fast moving world,its not tough 'finding love',there are so many hungry hearts around ,yearning for love.But isn't it unfair,to get involved with someone,just for the sake of it?

How can you push yourself to love just about anyone or anybody who comes your comes your way? For what?
Just to please your peers,or your so-called 'deserted soul',or,just to showcase yourself as an eye-candy for others?

What makes life more tragic are,the abrupt decisions that we youngsters take in order to get rid of these relationships! No wonder,'break-ups' are the talk of the day.We find it so easy to put an end to these once-so-precious (now-not-so-precious) relationships,without even realising the consequences.Do we? Don't we?
I am sorry,if my write-up causes displeasure to any of you reading this.I wrote this,keeping in mind a veri special friend, who is having a hard time,dealing with her 'break-up'.

Dearie,don't loose hope.If He is the 'one',the 'One' meant for you, he would eventually come back or,rather you would give him a chance to prove his mettle.For the time being,let life take the best decision for both of you.Stop fretting over it!

Its neither your Loss,nor his Gain!

As I said earlier,Time is the most potent healer in the entire Kayenaat.Give your relationship some time.Just let time slip by.Eventually,it would bring out the answers to all your queries!
Let destiny and time weave their magic in your life!